FEAR

By on June 16, 2011


 

It crawls behind your eyelids, scratching through your intestines like a spider created of ice. It lies within the darkness unknown, the screams unheard, the menacing beasts inside every mind waiting to pounce the moment your guard is lowered. Cower before it, or face it down.

Fear.

It comes upon us all, creeping up through the pits of our stomachs during times we want it least, causing our hands to tremble and making the simplest task impossible. Tears yearn to be shed at the mere thought of it and feet try to flee at its faintest whisper. It is the beast in your soul, the monster awaiting, ready to take over your mind with an inferno of panic, rendering you a terrorized victim in its wake.

Walk a beam a foot-wide which sits upon the sidewalk; this task is effortless. Walk the same beam suspended half a mile in the sky and terror overcomes you, making you unable to place one foot in front of the other, dropping you to all fours to crawl like a baby. The task is the same but the power of fear makes it impossible. A tennis ball tossed to you in the bright sunlight from a friend can be caught with ease, but if a man held a gun to the head of the one you cared for most in the world and said that to drop the ball would mean he pulls the trigger and the ball becomes a grain of sand whipped at you within a tornado. The same sunlight which brought you joy would blind you and your hands become lumps of clay, the insurmountable task of such a simple action rendering you incompetent in the wake of the tsunami of panic caused by what might happen should you fail.

But there is hope.

Fear makes fools of us all, and yet it protects us from harm, warning when danger is close and aiding our reflexes with power we cannot usually touch. It all comes down to how it affects you. If you allow fear to rage through you without control, it becomes an unleashed beast, snarling and snapping, which will turn and tear at you. But if you control it, force the creature to be your tool and not your master, it aids you beyond what you might normally hope to achieve, and the snarling beast becomes a burning phoenix within you, aflame but answering your command.

And then you will truly be free.

 

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4 Responses to “FEAR”

  1. Jodi says:

    It can be a paralyzing fear when we think about our work being judged by others. Even one bad review can send us running back to the safety of the darkness,
    Sometimes we just don’t feel the love and wonder what why we are doing this.
    We just need to have faith in our abilities and push past the fear and negativity.

  2. Bek says:

    It’s ironic how giving into the feeling of fear can cause the very occurence of that which you fear – just like the example you give of a plank on the ground, versus suspended several stories above ground. Without fear, the task could be easily completed. Yet fear can cause you to trip, stumble, wobble, even pass out. In relational situations it can cause you to fail in your speech, to run and hide rather than confront. It can make everything go wrong that could go wrong. When you think about it long enough, it becomes surprising that facing fear isn’t part of the national curriculum…

  3. Doris Ann Atkinson says:

    Fear is a primordial instinct which we need, even cultivated in order to thrive as a species. Our bodies even developed it’s own accelerant in times of threat of life or limb, (adrenaline). It is a driving force, causing our brains into fast fire during peril. It is what compels us to strive for more than survival, to think, to devise & innovate, even excel & dominate! If fire was personified it would be called fear (the difference of 1 letter). Controlled, it is the very best tool, but sense it IS fire, it will consume & devastate a person.

  4. Jeremy says:

    I’m actually thinking about having my Amygdala removed, that might be a step too far though in my quest to conquer fear lol

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